Lexxie Violin

I think I need to re-evaluate how I make life decisions - Barney Stinson, and me

Mon, 20 May 2013 13:28:00 -0500

• I tried detoxing this weekend, but after two days of not eating anything I was extremely crabby and hung up on a customer who was pissing me off. After that I abandoned my fast. I’ve learned that working with people and not eating do NOT go together.

• A guy I slept with came to my show last week after he saw me post about it on FB. I hadn’t seen him since the last time we had sex where he walked out of my bedroom, went to the kitchen, opened the pantry and started eating some of my roommate’s cereal and when I walked in goes “there’s nothing to eat, what are you making me?” He was completely serious. So I said, “nothing, but I’m sure you have food at home.” Anyway, I got a text from him this morning saying we should hang out soon with a winky face. Idk what’s more disturbing, him trying to hit me for a booty call, or that a grown man used a winky face.

• Haha good times. I have absolutely awful taste in men.

• I got onto a client’s computer using a remote desktop today and one of his tabs was pornhub. I almost died laughing. Zero fucks were given on his end.

• Marino, the keyboardist in my band, asked me if I’d be interested in recording backup vocals for his side project. Absolutely. I have the perfect bland but perfectly in tune that works with any voice backup voice. Getting together sometime this week. I’m excited.

• I secretly (or not so secretly now) wish I had the voice to be a frontman. Or frontwoman? That sounds stupid.

• I tried listening to Duke Ellington while getting ready for work this morning. So much fucking talent. Made my ears tired though.

• Why the hell isn’t there a bullets key on my freaking keyboard? This angers me every single day. Anyway, off to do some adult things. Pfft. Adulthood.

HAPPY MONDAY BABIES!

After sitting around moping all day I’m putting on actual...

Sun, 19 May 2013 18:29:13 -0500

After sitting around moping all day I’m putting on actual clothes and heading out for drinks. I’m so proud of me.

A friend I went to college with passed away from Leukemia today. We didn’t keep in touch after I...

Sat, 18 May 2013 20:57:04 -0500

A friend I went to college with passed away from Leukemia today. We didn’t keep in touch after I graduated, but we’re friends on Facebook so I knew he was sick. But last I heard he had a bone marrow transplant and was beating it. I never imagined his dying was even an option because he was so strong and regardless of his illness always so happy. He was 24, too too young. My heart breaks for his family. Cancer is such an awful disease. Rest in peace sweet Mark.

Pretty much sums up life.

Sat, 18 May 2013 09:53:54 -0500

Pretty much sums up life.

thatchicmichelle: Ryan Gosling picks up an acoustic guitar and...

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:40:33 -0500

thatchicmichelle:

Ryan Gosling picks up an acoustic guitar and is somehow 10 times hotter than he already is.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

roothakers: Also maybe crying my eyes out.

Fri, 17 May 2013 13:44:12 -0500

roothakers:

Also maybe crying my eyes out.

Why can’t everyone be as good as the Civil Wars? I am so...

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:19:48 -0500

Why can’t everyone be as good as the Civil Wars? I am so so so so so so excited they’re back.

Everything looks a little different from the stage

Fri, 17 May 2013 07:40:00 -0500

I didn’t get the job. They decided to go with someone who had been at the company longer. I saw that coming because I’ve only been here a little over 3 months, and they definitely voiced their concerns about that in the interview. I’m not terribly upset. I made it to the top 3 candidates out of the 60+ resumes they received so that in itself is a pretty big achievement. But what made it hard was that for the first time in a long time I had seen a clear plan for at least the next few years. And it felt good to have some kind of concrete path. So when I got off that phone call yesterday I felt the inevitable, “fuck, what am I going to do with my life?” question which is something I ask myself entirely too often. And that frightens me.

So I went to the bar feeling completely defeated. It took all the self control I posses to not get incredibly wasted before going on stage, but I did it. I needed a clear head. Then something pretty awesome happened onstage. All my feelings of disappointment, self-doubt, failure, they started to go away. I looked around at my band, all amazing people and so incredibly talented. I looked at the audience dancing and having fun. We were doing that. And I saw clearer than I have in some time that this is what I want to do. I may not have gone to a conservatory but that doesn’t mean I failed. I love this so much. This makes me happy. And that’s all I want for myself, a chance to be happy.

In the meantime, some stability would be nice. And I made it to the top 3 so I must be doing something right. So I’ll keep applying when opportunities arise and work my way up until the day comes when I can live solely as a musician. I mean, we’re playing with bands playing ACL music festival and opening up for The Lumineers. We can’t be that far off right? Shhh… Just let me have this one.

The best part of playing in a band is after the show everyone’s all, “here let me buy you a drink”...

Thu, 16 May 2013 23:48:29 -0500

The best part of playing in a band is after the show everyone’s all, “here let me buy you a drink” Yes, yes please. Yes always.

Hey guys look! I’m wearing a fanny pack! In case y’all were...

Thu, 16 May 2013 23:36:56 -0500

Hey guys look! I’m wearing a fanny pack! In case y’all were wondering why I’m single.

Whatever I’m so drunk and it was with our merch and it’s fucking awesome.

Danger: Overload

Thu, 16 May 2013 12:28:37 -0500

I left work early today because I feel like complete ass. I’m going home to take a quick nap and then resume with my 5 billion things I have to do today because of course I like to overload myself.

3: finish recording
5:30: phone meeting with my sup
6: meet with a client
7: get ready for show
8: sound check
10: play show

And back to work at 7 AM tomorrow. I slept around 6 hours last night which is unusual for me, but even then, I’m exhausted. Adam Sandler darling, can I borrow your remote? *hits pause forever*

Hahaha he has a point.

Thu, 16 May 2013 10:03:13 -0500

Hahaha he has a point.

emergentpattern: If I could love harder than I already have, I would.

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:06:17 -0500

emergentpattern:

If I could love harder than I already have, I would.

Is there vodka in my orange juice? Absolutely. Is this my...

Wed, 15 May 2013 11:28:31 -0500

Is there vodka in my orange juice? Absolutely.

Is this my first drink? Ha no.

Am I incapable of looking at the camera? It looks that way.

Drunk at (almost) noon because I just had an awesome interview and now I’m done for the rest of the day! Whoo!!!! I should probably take a nap. I’ve been up since 6 AM. Whatever, more vodka.

Have fun at work losers. XOXOXO

Yay for sundress weather!!!

Tue, 14 May 2013 19:20:13 -0500

Yay for sundress weather!!!

Thoughts

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:06:26 -0500

• I haven’t been on here very much these last few days. I’ve been crazy busy and haven’t had time to kill on the Internet. I guess this is adulthood? I hate it.

• Work dragged today, probably because I’m so anxious for my interview tomorrow. The first person who interviewed me told me I have the most experience so I’m hoping this happens. My first adult salary job. I’ve put it off for years to be a musician. Growing up feels weird.

• Speaking of being an adult, I’ve been playing with the idea of getting my own place. I’ve never been able to because musician income is ridiculously unreliable, but I finally have a steady job and I can technically afford it. That and my roommate is driving me crazy, which is always the case when she starts dating a new guy, only this time I actually have the option of not sticking around. Idk if I’ll actually do it. Coming from a family of 6, then to dorms, the living with my best friend, I’ve never had to be alone. I don’t know how to be alone. But maybe it’s time I learn.

• I’m recording with the guitarist from my old band today. He owns his own studio and does some phenomenal work so I’m excited to work with him. Especially because of this song, it has so much potential. I hope they make it. And then take me please I just want to play music.

• We’re playing a show on Thursday. Then more recording. And hopefully starting my new job on Monday. I’m exhausted with no end in sight.

Adulthood - 1
Lexie - 0

msdeenyc: latenightjimmy: John Krasinski and Jimmy Fallon have...

Sat, 11 May 2013 06:13:50 -0500

msdeenyc:

latenightjimmy:

John Krasinski and Jimmy Fallon have a Lip Sync-off

As if I could live John Krasinski any more! Awesome.

All that sex.

Spent 6 hours in the studio. My brain is fried. Where am I? Shit sounds awesome though.

Fri, 10 May 2013 23:35:51 -0500

Spent 6 hours in the studio. My brain is fried. Where am I?

Shit sounds awesome though.

Friday Five - recording break edition 1. I took my beer with me...

Fri, 10 May 2013 19:44:59 -0500

Friday Five - recording break edition

1. I took my beer with me to pee. Limited break time and recording is stressful. Alcohol (just a tiny bit) calms my nerves.

2. Jody (cellist) and I are actually recording a couple songs at the same time. I like it because it makes it feel more real.

3. We also dubbed our parts in a slow song so it sounds like a sweet ass string quartet. Now we just need holograms that play the parts along with us onstage.

4. I dropped my iPhone and cracked the screen. Oops. It’s not too bad though and it’s the second time so I definitely don’t care as much.

5. HR’s keeping an eye on me at work because of the recruiting position I applied for so I’ve had to be dressed super professional and on my game 100%. I’m exhausted.

HAPPY FRIDAY BABIES! XOXO

Photo

Thu, 09 May 2013 20:30:36 -0500